Differences and Disputes.

Sometimes i ask myself am i really ready to this again?
Is dating Mr A the right thing to do?
On days like this, i find myself praying and just asking God to take the wheel and take control. There is no doubt that this man loves me. Its all in his eyes and the way he treats me. He makes me want to be a better person, he is giving, knows how to make me laugh, he loves God, he encourages me and pushes me hard to not just be satisfied at where i am but to strive for greater heights, he is focused, he is resourceful and the list goes on.....
I think i am liking or even going beyond liking this man who puts no pressure on me who accepts my own pace as just being fine. He comes with his own issues and so do i and am sure he is learning to put up with my own issues and love me despite my shortcomings.

There are a few things about him that really grates on my nerves. Like him being too particular about everything. E.g. he doesn't want to go to a church in peckham, he doesnt want to buy stuff in a particular shop just for no valid reason at all. How he keeps telling me i have to be careful if i drop stuff on his floor, or when i am about to alight from the car. I am not a child for crying out loud. He sees stuff and just cant ignore without commenting.
Last week i helped with his dishes. For some reason i didnt rinse the soapy zinc afterwards the easiest thing to do would have been to rinse the zinc himself but he felt he had to let me know on how he finds it absurd that i didnt wash the zinc after doing the washing up. A lot of the time, i just let it pass over my head and he gets no reaction from me. I Know all this sounds pathetic but don't couples fight over the silliest things?

Today, we had our very first "serious" argument. We went shopping for food items. Saw a very good friend of mine from across the road making her hair in the salon. I told him i'd like to go say hello and asked him to come with me but he refused. I went over said hello and my friend having heard so much about him asked to say hello to him. I signalled for him to come over but he walked off. I quickly said goodbye to my friend and caught up with him.I was livid and the ffg dialogue occured.


Me: I was calling u but u walked off
Mr A: You cant just be making spontaneous decisions like that
Me: You call going over to say hi to a friend for a minute spontaneous?
Mr A: Are u upset?
Me: You bet I am


We bought our stuff and then got into the car.

Mr A: Do u want me to drive you home to cool off
Me: **silent treatment**

He takes me home.

Me: I cant believe you brought me home. The plan was to go to ur place to cook afterwards
Mr A: I don't want to be around a moody person
Me: You are talking about us getting married soon. Is this what you would do if we were already married? Drive me back to my mother's house?
Mr A: You cant be treating me like your puppy dog.
Me: How? Lets switch places. If you wanted me to say hi to a friend of yours who u happened to come aross on our way out and i walk away, how would you feel?
Mr A: You are over reacting
Me: Fine. See u later

Got out of the car. He drove off and i went straight to my room and a few tears rolled down my cheeks. I was pretty upset.
He has called me several times but i havent picked up.The whole situation got me thinking how two totally different people come together and how its not always easy to get along or agree to the way the other person is but when you are adamant and want things to work and know what you have is special, you put differences aside and resolve issues.

I am outta here. I think i need to call back a certain somebody.